AM I ENOUGH
In a world that has taught us to live outside of ourselves, how can we know who we really are?
In the stillness of the night, I lay not in silence, but rather in the frenzy of thoughts percolating in my brain. “I should put a hypnotic audio on”, I tell myself. “Those always help me to fall back to sleep”. That’s when the tug of war begins. Do I really need the assistance of the audio, or do I just hammer through and create my own relaxing inner dialogue? The next words swirling around in my head are, “You’re letting your ego get in the way Hubercheck – listen to the audio”.
Why is it this relationship with self must constantly stand in the approval of EGO?
I love Freud’s observations on the Ego. As quoted in an article I have just finished, written by Kendra Cherry, in https://www.verywellmind.com , “Ego as the Rational Part of Personality”, she states, “In his 1933 book New Introductory Lectures on Psychoanalysis, Freud compared the relationship between the id and the ego to that of a horse and rider. The horse represents the id, a powerful force that offers the energy to propel forward motion. The rider represents the ego, the guiding force that directs the power of the id toward a goal. Freud noted, however, that this relationship did not always go as planned. In less ideal situations, a rider may find himself simply along for the ride as he allows his horse to go in the direction the animal wants to go. Just as a rider may not always be able to control a horse, the id’s primal urges may sometimes be too powerful for the ego to keep in check.”
Psycho blah blah blah! Or is it? Not all of us want to get to the root of what is driving our moods and behaviours. Isn’t it just much easier to take a pill or have a few drinks or what ever your vice might be, to aid in balancing our out of whack chemistry and overriding the things we are running from?
What if you and I had the power to change that out of whack chemistry using nothing else but our own thoughts?
What forms our reality? Is it the external or physical world we live in that creates this, or our perception of those experiences? What about the history of our perception of those things?
Jesus, Buddha, Dalai Lama, Joseph Smith, to name a few of the great spiritual leaders that have practiced and taught about self-love. Historical agents of faith, the real founders of Health, Lifestyle, Relationship and Resilience Coaching. Isn’t that what their purpose on this earth was: to bring us closer to the Divine through our personal evolution and self-awareness?
This is not a lecture on theology or world religion. This blog is about grasping a concept, one that each of us is born to experience. The very thing that generations of guru’s and spiritual leaders have attempted to show us since the beginning of time. Let’s imagine that we are a collective part of the I AM. We have been taught there is light/good and evil/darkness. Let’s be curious about these things for a moment. How do we know light or darkness? What do they “feel” like beyond the ocular sense of them? Can you “sense” good and evil without first experiencing evidence of them? What is coming into your mental awareness as you read these questions? I can tell you – words. Words are coming into your mental awareness.
Imagine the powerful force of words that forms a child’s reality. Imagine that you carry your inner child with you, even until the moment that you take your last breath. Words have created who you see yourself to be and how you believe the world perceives you.
Words form every element of our daily existence. Even in our sleeping lives, dreams are created through the mental images dancing around inside of our brains. To process those images, you must put them into words.
As humans we compartmentalize and put names and meanings to things through words.
We are each taught the concepts and meanings of words in languages relative to where we live in this world and who we live with. We are groomed from pre-infancy to formulate an emotional response to “words”. It is how we communicate with ourselves and with others. It is how we identify and relate to everyone and everything around us.
Is it any wonder then that as we grow older and live to accumulate more and more experiences, we become lost in a sea of beliefs, behaviours, and patterns? Whether healthy and helpful or not, and most times not, they exist to protect us. We all have them.
So, back to id and ego. If you tell yourself that you are too tall, too short, too fat, too thin, too ugly, too pretty, too stupid, too smart – guess what? You will find evidence that you are the very things that you say you are. What’s more interesting is, you will create experiences that validate your thoughts. What are your thoughts? Words!
“Well then, I will just tell myself better words”
Easy right?! Nope! The other thing about being human is that we are hard wired to stay “safe”. What does safe look like to our brain? It looks like what is familiar. If you have spent most of your life telling yourself you’re “not enough”, you’ll have created protective habits and behaviours over the years, those are the things that will be familiar. Familiar equals safe. To allow better thoughts to become integrated into who we are, it helps to have someone to guide and encourage us, to coach us. Someone to help us stay focused on our “why” behind wanting to change the negative words that taunt and remind us of our inadequacies. Someone who will edify and help to celebrate us when we have overcome hurdles and made even the smallest steps towards the big changes. I have a few favorites for sure and am thankful for the light they’ve shared with me when I couldn’t clearly see my way.
There really is a thing called magic, it is the most magnificent phenomena when you believe in something so powerfully that you find the evidence to validate what you believe to be true.
Twenty-one days to change a thought and form a new one. I believe that tonight is a good night to begin.
I reach for my personalized audio recording. It’s a lovely recording, the wind is blowing through the trees and the waves are dancing on the shore. In the distance there is an owl and then begins the gentle voice, the voice that will remind me as I am drifting off to sleep,
“I AM ENOUGH”…
thank you for such an incredibly insightful piece written in such a way I felt it was a beautiful conversation, I am enough, you are enough, we are enough xo
Iman